| Just A Memory
by Mika Kusumi
My heart beat fast when I found out
I was happy when you asked me
I liked you - I really did
But I said I was too busy
I didn’t want things to change
I was happy to just be your friend
Life was good with you at my side
I liked the way things were right then
But I knew deep down I had feelings for you
& together we could probably pull through
Instead I denied everything
& thought this love wasn’t true
I told myself I didn’t like you
I told myself it wouldn’t work
I told myself it couldn’t happen
Cause my life would go berserk
All that was the past
It’s all a memory
Everything that happened
Just a memory
Whenever I was in your touch
Time stopped for just a moment
I wondered if you felt that way too
But you acted as if nothing was different
Sometime later something happened
A part of me was sad & missing
I was so confused with all my feelings
My heart felt us distancing
But I see you happy
You’re still the same person I knew
And I’m happy you are happy
But wanting to be there with you
I told myself I didn’t like you
I told myself it wouldn’t work
I told myself it couldn’t happen
Cause my life would go berserk
All that was the past
It’s all a memory
Everything that happened
Just a memory
Things aren’t the way it used to be
We’re not as close as we were
I thought I was over you
But every time I look at you-everything’s a blur
It’s time I moved on
It’s time I let go*
My uncertainty is killing me
And I just don’t know why
My hearts moving on
But our paths are the same
I’m letting go…
…But you make me who I am
So don’t leave me alone…
*I liked you, but I was too shy
I had my chance & I let it go/let it pass by/didn’t take it/pushed it away
It’s hard to go on
And I’m just a memory…
Thanks for reading it if you did :] it was just a sad little poem i made [notice it's a story?] but
then i changed it into a possible song. like it? give me your input
please! i made a couple alternative endings. thanks to my bro
greg who makes pretty good inspirational poems for helping me with the
ending :]
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| it's been a while hasn't it?
sorry i've been gone so long. it could have been longer though.
i have yet to fulfill my goals. my life has been busier than ever. busier than any of my other school years & i'm lovin' it.
this year has been way more challenging & i'm always up for a good challenge. i think i live off of stress.
it's probably not good for me but it makes me feel like i'm not useless
& it keeps me going. it keeps my mind off things although i tend to
daydream way too often.
Valentine's day has come and
gone. instead of being sad & lonely because it's a couples day i
spent the day trying to spread & share how much i care about
people. it turned out to be a very happy day :] hugs & smiles
galore!
i've found a new favorite word: lackadaisical - it means lethargic or lazy. i like the way it sounds when i pronounce it :]
enough of my rambling.
until i blog again,
mika
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| my one goal-to be able to make you smile, laugh, somehow cheer you up even in the toughest, saddest moments when you are at your lowest. why? because i love you from the bottom of my heart. that would reach me to my next goal: happiness. :] |
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| nobody really uses xanga anymore.
sadness.
well, to all who still use it..
MERRY CHRISTMAS & HAPPY NEW YEAR! :]
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| how do you tell a guy that you like, who likes someone else, that you
were heartbroken because of him without telling him it's him?
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